Today, I sat down to work on Chapter 1 of my thesis and, after staring at the computer screen for 45 minutes doing almost nothing, I thought, “I have got to get out of here!”
I do not think I am the type of person who can work from home. After spending several hours a day in the study (our fancypants name for the second bedroom in our apt.) I have gone a little crazy. Actually, I think it’s more the fact that I very rarely leave the apt. for any length of time. I go to my knitting group twice a week and that’s pretty much the most time I spend outside of the apt. I find myself running to the grocery store to pick up one item. Or, going to Target to wander around for a half an hour or so. Today, I knew that wasn’t going to cut it. I went to the yarn store for awhile, then to the bookstore to buy a book, get a chai tea and read for awhile. It felt really, really good.
I think this does not bode well for my idea that I would be a stay at home mom whenever it is that we manage to have children. I really thought I would be just fine, but I think I have finally met my limit in terms of spending 23 hours in the same place every day for weeks on end. It’s not even that I just didn’t want to work on my thesis (although there was probably some of that in there, too). I tried sitting in the living room and knitting for awhile, thinking that might make me feel better and I could go back to work, but no such luck.
So, I need a new plan for writing. A plan that includes a coffeeshop with free wi-fi. I need access to pubmed. I need lots of papers, too, and it will be a pain in the ass to carry them around with me, but I have to spend time outside the apt. I haven’t worked at a coffeeshop yet because it’s hard for me to focus for more than 45 min. at a time, so I work for 45 min., take a short break, then start working again. It seems like it will be a little harder to do that at the coffee shop (can’t get just get up and wander around for 10 minutes or so) but–and I can’t stress this enough–I have got to get out of here on a daily basis or I am going to go insane.