First off, thanks for all of the welcome back messages. It really means a lot to me to know that I was missed!
One thing that has been a pretty big surprise for me is that I like staying home. I really thought that, after a couple of weeks, I would go stir crazy and need to get some kind of job, but that hasn’t happened. Instead, I find myself cooking dinner, doing the laundry, cleaning, sewing clothes, and knitting and I like it. I really do (okay, maybe not the cleaning part so much, and thank God for the dishwasher, but mostly I like it). Some of this may be thesis avoidance, but mostly, I think I just like staying home.
I do get out a bit. I’ve got two knitting groups I go to and I do the grocery shopping and stuff. I go to church. I go for walks (though not as much right now because it is beastly hot out here). I have lunch with Husband.
I barely miss lab at all. I miss the people, but working at the bench not so much. I don’t even miss science at this point. Which goes to show that I was really, really burned out. I’m sure I’ll start to miss science sometime in the future and I’ll get involved in science outreach or something, but guys, I’m telling you, I am happy as a clam to not be in lab.
This is not to say that all is well in the mental health department. In addition to freaking out about having my husband around (now nicely managed with an atypical antipsychotic), I started having weird paranoid thoughts about somebody being in the apartment while my husband was away on an observing run.* Then, I started thinking I could hear someone in the apt. Not good. More atypical antipsychotic, please!
All of the weirdness may be related to some PTSD stuff I’ve had in the past brought up by the trauma of the move which is good to know, but…OY! It is not fun at all. Thank God my psychiatrist does phone appointments, is all I’ve got to say.
So, now, I just need to start working on my thesis. I was doing pretty good for awhile, working on it every day and then that stopped. My motivation factor for writing the thing is about nil, but it needs to be done. Maybe I’ll put a little Thesis Progress widget in the sidebar with the number of hours I worked on it each week as a way to give myself some accountability. Though, I’m leaving for Iowa tomorrow for a week so I doubt I’ll be getting much done on the thesis once I’m there. I’ll be too busy visiting family and holding babies.
*Supposedly, the telescope is in Hawaii. I’m not sure I buy that though. I think it may be a hoax perpetrated by the astronomy community so that they can go to Hawaii for a week on a regular basis. 😉